depression

there's too many to think, too much to handle, too many piled up works, too many things to memorized, too many task to be done, too much stress to handle, too little time to complete everything, too many unreasonable person to handle, too many drama to tolerate, too many pretenders to pretend back too, too many responsibilities to handle, too many food to eat, too many fat to loose, too many small minded mind to tolerate, too many assignments to hand in, too many needs to fulfill, too many pleasures to entertain.

I blame myself with all these things. buttttt, partially, it is not even my fault. can't people give in to me too? im tired. can't you read me? i am just a human, like you. a daughter to satisfy parents, a sister to satisfy a brother, a friend to satisfy friends, a stranger to satisfy the community, a citizen to satisfy the nation.

please have mercy in me too? :(

well, they say this is life

'even so you would want to bring me out in the future, maybe so i am gonna reject the invitation'

'even so you tried to show the love, but i just can't feel it'

'even so in the future, there will be some things that you would offer, i am gonna turn you down.'

'even so there will be the caring, but i certainly can't feel it'

'even so i noticed all the things you have done for me, i can't seem to come and satisfy with everything'

my life really is fucked up. 

btw, sorry for being this type of daughter.

begging myself

TO GO COMPLETE THOSE FREAKING ASSIGNMENTS!