Went and it was fucktardly oh-so-emmmmmmmmm! 

for more pictures, please visit hereeeeee. thankyou! <3

and also, for more details of the concert, or you have any enquiries such as 'how hot GD can be? , how is seungri's troll face? , how fucking awesome the night were?' please ask me face-to-face. or if we haven't met before, please add me on facebook, and i'll gladly tell you the whole thang! :D

anddddd.....

on the 25th of November, it's 2PM's day. 

go on, be jealous. x) bye! xoxo.

It seems like there's noone that is willing to hear my problem. So im gonna let out everything here. Thanks for always being there blogger. :)

I have a problem. I felt like it's unfair for me to be having this problem. It's because I felt like he can do better than this. Does my heart don't matter to them? Even if we're just friends? Do you need to do all that to me? Do i have an armour that cover my heart, that even you shoot me like gazillion times, my heart is still well protected? Do i deserve to have u treat me like this? This is just so unfair.

I have guy friends, ok, everyone does. There's this specifically a guy friend that make me feel this way. I expect more from him actually, because it seems that he knows everything about me, and i do too. Maybe so not everything, but i think that it is enough that he knows how i would feel if he do that. But he did it. Okay, you have a girlfriend. I respect that. And for the record, I never had feelings for you. Even right now, today, this second. So, i need you to stop doing as if, I may fall for you. Because I won't. Mark my words, I won't. I may sound arrogant here, but that's the truth, we are friends. and I'm happy with just that. You seriously need to attend class on 'How to handle girlfriend'

His girlfriend told him that he could not go out with me. Like only the two of us. If im that evil now, I would like to make a statement such as, 'Helloooooo! IM NOT GONNA RAPE YOUR BOYFRIEND. NEITHER GONNA HOLD HANDS. LIKE EUW! COULD YOU PLEASE DO ME A FAVOR AND RAPE HIM YOURSELF?!' I'm sorry for this if you are reading this. But I felt that you need to understand me too. I could get hurt with your stupid thoughts that you could not do this because of your girlfriend and that too because your girlfriend forbid you to, eventho we are just friends. It's just so irritating. Last month, it just happens that I need him to accompany me somewhere. Well, to be honest, he willingly wants to accompany me. It’s because I thank him for that, I did not say much. And I could not ask my housemates to do the favor because they are all busy. Well said before, his girlfriend don't approve him going out with me, just the two of us. I just felt that why the heck you need to be so obediently follow your girlfriend. Okay, maybe I don’t understand the situation that he might be in if he didn’t obey but I felt that this is just too immature. Jangan la buat benda jadi remeh, you eventually involve me too. Be a man lah, explain everything to your girlfriend and ask her to be more mature, be more open. Sometimes, I felt like saying, 'EUWWWWWWW, who want's you man? tolong lahhhhh~' everyone asks me to endure that, and just sabar. Everyone has its own limits, and mine, it has already reached its limit. And that's why, Im typing this, hoping that I could loosen up a lil bit. Please give some mercy if im rude. I just expect he would be more mature. Eventho you girlfriend says not to do so, you just obediently follow. Okay, maybe when I happen to have someone, maybe so, I would be exactly like you, but hey, im a girl. You're a guy. And the fact that why did you need to tell me that your girlfriend doen't like you being with me, eventho as just friends. I felt that you don’t need to tell me that. Or even so you feel like I could take it, you should at least tell me properly. You can't upload photos of us, even photos that we are in a crowd, just because we were standing next to each other, you couldn't upload it. like seriously? When I ask why, you answer me heartlessly. Well guess what, saya terasa sangat2. Okay, you may say, typical girl. But whatever, I've reached my limits today. I sincerely appologise of this entry. The thing is that you are treating me as if I have a crush on you. Well my dear, I DON’T. 

Don’t just see it in your POV, I have my disadvantages too. I hate it sooooooo much when people claimed that we’re dating. People don’t dare to approach me because they thought you are my boyfriend. Everyone, yes, everyone was saying ‘Mana boyfriend? Apsal tk sekali?’ Boyfriend apa dohhhhhhhhhhhhhh? -,- ‘Fyna ada boyfriend lah wehh, she’s off-limits.’ like seriously? Yes, people were talking about us. But the thing is, there is no US. I felt so tensed, but hey, chill je lah, I felt that you are my friend, and there’s nothing I can do to make people stop talking. I just deny and tell them the truth. I felt that if I were to deny teruk-teruk sangat, nanti I will hurt you. Or if I say you were never my type, ‘fall for you? Like seriously? *annoyed’, nanti you take it the wrong way pulak, and also, I might hurt you. I never voice out anything. But you always bang me with stupid stuff such, you couldn’t upload those pictures, controversy will arouse, you couldn’t accompany me to buy stuff, girlfriend said not to. Well, those are just too frivolous for me to give in. Well, actually, there are more that you did to me, but I won't be such a whimper, that every single thing I must tell the whole world. I just want you to get the point, why am I typing this out.

My solution to stop being tense over this stupid stuff, is to not be close to you. But we are studying in the same class, friends with the same people, living in the same building, there are things that I need you to help me with, we study for exams together. And thus, I have no solution to this. Besides, you are my friend, and always will be. Yes, even you hurt me all these while without realizing. I am sorry, but I can’t afford to be the cause of you and your girlfriend arguments, mistakenly pointed as being unavailable, hurt because you couldn’t handle this well, hate or shall I say mistaken by your girlfriend that we have something. No, I couldn’t do this anymore. Sorry, and be happy with your dear girlfriend, PLEASE GET MARRY AND HAVE KIDS. Okay, I am not saying this because im offended, but yeah, seriously, please do. Sorry if tomorrow and the days ahead, I might won’t be my ownself with you anymore.

THEIR SONGS ARE SO ADDICTIVE!
aigooo, how not to like them?
Nadia asked me to stop listening to them. LOL!
Dia takut aku beli CD diorg. lollll~
but honey, I just canttttt! T______T

B1A4, BLOCK B & LEDapple, I LOVE YOU GUYS! <3

여러분, 너 내거야 ! :)

LOOK WHAT CAME IN TODAY! X)

*i am not going to tell any stories about this. hehe*

BYE! <3

tolong bunuh diri sekarang.

as for me,
RIP MEGAUPLOAD.

T________________________T

It is not a sin right to like someone?
and it is not a sin too right, hoping that, that someone will like you back?

You are too unique, that it is hard for me to reach you.

Kung Fu Panda 2

 

The awesome Xiao Po is backkkkkkkk! okay, i know im late. but lately, i've been infected by Po's virus! I have watched this in theatres with Pojie, Quza and Salam. We took the evening show. The theater im in, the seats were almost filled. My seat was tolerable. BECAUSE I WANT TO WATCH XIAO PO SO BADLY! EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE THEN. lolll. The movie kept me well entertained right from the beginning till the end. Xiao Po Panda make me laugh like there's no tomorrow. and there are also some parts that make me go 'awwwwwwwwwwwwww, yiiiiiiiiiiii, gyahhhhhhhh' lol. which part? 

THIS!

This scene is where Po's father, the goose, tell him the story where he got Po. Po suddenly became curious and asked where he is actually from, who's the mother and is the goose his real father. So the goose told Po everything. Po came in a basket full of veggies on a normal ordinary day, the goose waited to see who will come and take baby Po, but no one did. Po suddenly felt off the ground. and cried because all the veggies is out of his reach (he can't eat anymore, someone need to help. lol) so the goose took him, feed him, bathe him, named him xiao po, and feed him again. thehehehhehe~ <3 <3

Besides this, there was also a part where you can just get all teared up. It is the part where Po discover 'Inner Peace' and how he end up in the veggie basket. It is very sad.

Overall of the story, the very funny part is where. HOW COME A PEACOCK WANT TO CONQUER CHINA?! lollll. an evil peacock. badass peacock killed Xiao Po's family and ruined the village too. and he created something to make people bow down to him. ==|

My fist is hunger for justice. You my friend, have a black belt in being awesome!
I LOVE KUNG FU PANDA! X)

This is a story that happened on the 30th April 2011.

okayyy, i am not going to tell you which is the highlight of the day. try to figure out yourself. xD *ngada2. ><

early in the morning i woke up and get ready for this day. okay, it's very abnormal for me to wake up early during weekends, loll. ok back to the story, around 11am we left the house.

ohhhh, i forgot to mention that, during that weekends, i am at izzy's house. :) she is very kind to invite me to her house. we chillllll, shop till we drop (oh boy, this time, believe me, we really did. ==) and andd anddd we go and meet someone in person! xD (guess who. heee ain't gonna tell you now, read this post till the end okay? :D )

okay so, 11am, we went to Jalan TAR, izzy wanted to buy some baju kurung and her mother wanted to buy some scarfs, and me too, wanted to buy some selendang. xD
and yeah, i did bought some, most of the design there are not to my likings, and they are goddamn expensive. T_T itsokayyyy, i manage to get some designs. heeee.

okay and sooo, the event, and also the highlight of my post, starts on the same day, at 1PM. and all this happens at The Mines. (can you guess already?! :D ) welllllll, actually, it is very far, oh yess, Jalan TAR and The Mines is very far, it took us about 30-40 minutes from Jalan TAR to reach Mines.
we (me and Izzy) safely reached Mines around 12.50PM, so there were already many people, the crowd was livelyyyy! people are waiting, chanting, and also taking pictures and and alsooooo singing to the songs that was very extremely to the max loud. :D
at first, i knew that i need to purchase the album in order to go on stage, so i did purchase it. yeahhh, worth ittt! i knew that i have no way from stopping myself to purchase it. LOLLL~

IT IS SE7ENNNNNNNNNN! *screamsssss*

heeeeeeeeee~ eventhough it is only shaking his hands, IT WAS TOTALLY WORTH IT! *fainttt

he was extremely gooood loooking! no doubt! very cuteeeee! humbleeee! yiiiiii! <3 <3 and plus, we are YG FAMILYYYYY! :D

okayy, at exactly 1.10PM he goes on stage and we, the crowd, scream like there's no tomorrow. he greeted us by saying 'helllooooo, apa khabar?' awww awwww, great job se7en! <3

he took some group photos with some lucky winners from EPOP magazine and YG magazine. gyahhhh! extremely the cuteeeee~ xD

there was one girl that got to lean on himmmm! *shooooots the girl* LOLL!

so luckyyyy. yiiii! it's okayyy, looking from afar already make this girl happy. *poyoyoyoyoyo* ==|
and so, after all the photo session ended, we line up for the handshaking, and anddd, i was tardly nervous, and i even arrange some things to say to him. LOLLL this is what i wanted to say, 'hey sevennnnn, how's park hanbyul?' *grinnnns

I wanted to say this because i expect him to go all blushing, face entirely red, because i was talking about hius pretty girlfriend. theheheheheheh~

but when i am on stage, he is right there in front of meeee!!!

he grabs my handdd, like grabb, that grab that no one else can grab, (lolllll) and i go blank, i only manage to say, 'heyyyyyy sevennnnn!' and he immediately grab my hand, and i go blank. and he was fuckingtardly cuteeeee, that's another reason why i go blank. lol. and he smileee, make some eye contacts, and there i gooo, down the stage. *phewwwww, forgive my fangirling moment. ><

Izzy, my accompany of the day, loll, was actually not a big fan of his, also, felt in love with him. extremely cute guy! *muka sangat bersihhh okayyy* 

and alsoo, i noticed, when i was shaking his hands, he was not that tall from me, maybe like 2 inch taller? hmmm. buy anyways, C U T E! 

and anddd, there this one moment, izzy told me, because she witnessed the whole thing as i was busy lining up, there's a girl that brught a camera up on stage without the security knows and she covers it with a signboard (i believe she make the signboard herself to support seven) and when seven notices that she was taking his picture, he winkedddddddd! *faints* gyahhhhh! *diessss.

okayy, i leave you guys with the pictures me and izzy took. xD

it's me. LOLLL!

okayyy, so how was it? btw, i'm listening to his album now. ^^ support se7en everyone! <3 <3

okay, what a lame blogger am I. gomen. *bows
I can't even complete my countdown.
This is because, my exams are so fucking packed. I can't even breathe normally.
okayy. *appologise.

So it is like 5 more minutes to my birthday.
As i say before, I am not expecting anything. but this is tooo much to handle.
It's 5 minutes to my birthday, and the house is quite, everyone is in bed.
of course i don't mind. but.....

I know that i should understand, that they aren't well, and tired.
but this thing, called birthday its annually. not daily, weekly, nor monthly.
I'm not trying to be self-centered or the malay will say 'mengungkit' here,but when it was theirs, i waited eagerly. and make things more happening.

well, it's okay, like i say, I'm not expecting anything.
and I'm writing this is not to hurt anyone.

Okay, it's already my birthday. and there's still no sign of them, giving me surprises, or singing me birthday song. I AM SAD. truly sad.
bye.

okay, i have no idea why the heck my blog, i could not insert any title. whatevs!
today, is a short update. Im tired of studying. wish me luck peeps! ;)

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your liking is much appreciated! thankies! <3

okay so, it is
5 MORE DAYS TO MY 19TH BIRTHDAY

OKAY! it is time for my birthday countdown. LOL, lamee-O. i knowww. ><

but first! i want to share that I am having my midterm exam soon. wish me the best of best of best of luck, because this semester, the subjects were really tough. I need to be really strong, move forward. GO GO FYNAAA! heee.

time table are as follows:
(11/4 - 14/4)

monday - introduction to pharmaceutical technology

tuesday - pharmacy practice 1

wednesday - general pharmacology & pharmacognosy

thursday - pharmaceutical calculation

phewww, by just looking at it, i felt like drowning. >< *yelpppp!
wednesday will be an unusual stressful day as it has TWO TOUGH SUBJECTS!
people out there, Nurul Syafina Binti Zaidi would like to ask a favor, please pray the best for me. I must to get good results. I have too. I NEED TOO! thankies! *muahhx!
I am still retardly online-ing eventho I haven't even making progress in memorizing all these facts.
butttt, i'm freakingly excited about my birthday, not excited actually, just curious to be precise.
yep, i am curious. and moreover, I have bought myself an extravagant birthday present. LOL! sungguh desperate. heeee, who cares? i love myself. X)
and yeah, was hoping for it to arrive around my birthday. Don't be too late please, as I'm scared that my birthday will be retarded as the previous year. LOL!

btwwww,

6 MORE DAYS TO MY 19TH BIRTHDAY!

this year, a slice of cake will do. I am not asking for more. but, make it a lotttt of presents? hahahaha, sorry peeps. Im already thankful for what i have now. Just be there for me, and everything will be just fine.
wtheck im crapping? *bows.

and alsooo! ehmmm, I hereby inform the whole world that im 70% VIP and 30% BOICE!
i am so loving CN Blue's new song, intuition. It is a very fresh song. me love love love love it soooo much! it is like a song that i can die for. LOL! but don't get me wrong. I AM STILL LOVING BIGBANG. infact, deeply than before. heeee. I din't listen to their double new track of the special edition album yet. because, i wanted to hear it legally. xD so yeah, until the album reach me, please do not make me suffer even more by telling me they rockk in that song. duhhh-uhh, bigbang always rock the stage, solo or even as a group.
okayyy, back to intuition, THEY ARE SO FRIGGIN HOT AND TALENTED! well, i've notices them before, but their song have not clicked with me to this extend. I love 'im a loner' & 'love love love' too. but intuition is off the hook! was actually thinking of buying their special edition album. yes, the one with limited copies. buy with what? me have no idea either. *sighhh.
check it out!



and btw jonghyun is absolutly MINE! ;)

A more upgraded BigBang

I've planned to not listen to their 4.5 Special Edition album, until i received the album. and guess what? this is just too hard.
I even refused to illegally download their songs, because im cool like that.

Heard all sorts of comments, positive ones of course. and this make me more anxious. but its sokayyy, since I am having my midexam soon too. and there's nothing to worry about, because im sure this is worth waiting for! <3

빅뱅 그런 멋진데

This picture just killed me.

fuck shitttt, I can't do this. *beneath the thoughts.

depression

there's too many to think, too much to handle, too many piled up works, too many things to memorized, too many task to be done, too much stress to handle, too little time to complete everything, too many unreasonable person to handle, too many drama to tolerate, too many pretenders to pretend back too, too many responsibilities to handle, too many food to eat, too many fat to loose, too many small minded mind to tolerate, too many assignments to hand in, too many needs to fulfill, too many pleasures to entertain.

I blame myself with all these things. buttttt, partially, it is not even my fault. can't people give in to me too? im tired. can't you read me? i am just a human, like you. a daughter to satisfy parents, a sister to satisfy a brother, a friend to satisfy friends, a stranger to satisfy the community, a citizen to satisfy the nation.

please have mercy in me too? :(

well, they say this is life

'even so you would want to bring me out in the future, maybe so i am gonna reject the invitation'

'even so you tried to show the love, but i just can't feel it'

'even so in the future, there will be some things that you would offer, i am gonna turn you down.'

'even so there will be the caring, but i certainly can't feel it'

'even so i noticed all the things you have done for me, i can't seem to come and satisfy with everything'

my life really is fucked up. 

btw, sorry for being this type of daughter.

begging myself

TO GO COMPLETE THOSE FREAKING ASSIGNMENTS! 

After a long haitus

you read that right, BIGBANG IS BACK! after so longggg, 2 years is long enough right? 

and yeah, super excited. tkda duit pun sanggup squeeeeeeze untuk beli this mini album. ala, anyhow, akan beli juga. so make no difference. haha. 

been doing the countdown everyday. lol. i wrote the countdown on my every lecture notes. lol. until my friend got annoyed? lol.

GYAHHHHHH! bigbang, thanks for coming back, with a better image, with a very seductive voice (oh yeah!), with a goddamn amazing songs, and of course the hair and outfits. love love loveee! :)

To GDragon :') : LOVE YOUR HAIR. enough said. thanks for making amazingggg song. composing, writing lyrics, it is just too much to adore. iloveyou. :')

To TOP : daddy is always hot tand cant be hotter. :D thanks for having the voice, the voice that melts me whenever you're rapping. you are one in a million <3

To Seungri : you complete bigbang. thanks for making you hyung's life miserable. i enjoy watching it. thehehehhe. seungri ah, WHAT CAN I DO?! (about loving you guys too much) :D

To Taeyang : your hair is your signature and of course you are the only one that can rock with those style. thanks for singing and making bigbang's song complete. X)

To Daesung : looking massively hot day by dayy! Can't resists youu! omg, no no, im with GD. lol. daesung's voice is just so soothing to the ear. YG sure did a good job in styling you up. XD

okayyy, those are my words for them. as if they read it right? humpp. but its okay, they can feel it. LOL!

exactly at 12.10AM, Fyna Zaidi has completed listening to ALL of bigbang's 4th mini album. and it is just love, pure love. my favourite is cafe. this one :

I can't seem to stop listening to this. This is pure love.

BIGBANG! and of course to YG too, thank you so much for having this comeback. I miss you.

Dear Friend Ver. 2

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROOMATE! <3

stay healthy! X)

Dear Friend

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE! <3

you are already 21! *cheers*

fcuked up life

I HATE ORGANIC CHEMSTRY

but, most of all

I HATE MY ORGANIC CHEMISTRY'S LECTURER!